You're a Diamond. You seem like a cold and an
unreachable person outside, yet you are
beautiful inside and outside. You may be
stubborn at times. You act with grace and
elegance and you are a precious asset to all
your friends.


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You excel at Care of Magical Creatures. You must
have a thing for those cute furry things...or
big scaley things...or scary firebreathing many
teethed things...


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i think my brain just hanged or something. too many programmes are running at the same time. feels as if the whole system's gone kaput. i'm just staring at the physics equations but i can't get my mind to work on deciphering it. hiez. went over to cel's house this afternoon to study. we managed to get quite abit done amidst a lot of chatting and binging. well, they say 2 head are better than 1. cel's former maid baked her an egg custard cake for her birthday. it was absolutely delicious man! i've been scouting around for the recipe for a really long time now. the last time i ate it was probably slightly less than 10 years ago. haha. really happy. think all the sugar in my system is making me high. i'm feeling rather dreamy now. my mind's awake and my eyes are seeing, but somehow everything seems very detached. haha. oh well.

anyway, happy birthday cel! enjoy your pressies!! :) i love you!

i'm at the club now. just had dinner. all the blood's in my stomach so whatever i tried to study a few minutes ago is everywhere but in my brain. oh well. seems like the club is a really popular place for sn girls. met eileen poon and venetia this afternoon. hui zhen, hui jing, hui fen and weifang are at the table behind me right now. haha. had a nice chat with miss poon and her friend. we were comparing the different jcs, namely vj, rj and hc. talk about diversity. they were telling me all about med school, and the different courses you can take there. sounds very interesting. :) of course, when 2 or more sn girls meet, the subject always turns towards sn, sn, sn and xiaozhang. :) had a really pleasant trip down memory lane. felt really nostalgic and sad at the same time. sigh.

oh well. time to retreat to my dingy corner and spend some quality time with my notes.

in Chrsit alone
i place my trust
and find my glory in the power of the cross
in every victory let it be said of me
my source of strenght
my source of hope
is Christ alone

darn! my com died on me again just when i was about to post my entry. argh!

just came back from cel's party! it was a bash man! had a really wonderful time. celene was absolutely gorgeous! met lotsa new people too. grinz. :) love cel's house! love the party, the balloons, the cake, the music, the band.... it was a... erm... how should i phrase it... ear-opening experience. haha. seriously. the drummer was really really good. flashes of the wt jamming session kept appearing in my mind. mainly, it was euclid thrashing the drums and drowning out all the other instruments. and not to mention our ear drums too. haha... well... considering it was their first gig, they really put up a fancy show. well done guys!

okie. so my original script was alot longer, but i'm too lazy to type it all out right now. all i need now is some sleep to quell the headache that has been hammering at my temples since sunday.

there once were 2 seeds that had been planted in the soil. the first seed said to itself, "i want my roots to grow down to reach the water. i want my shoots to burst forth through the soil and out into the open air. i want to feel the warmth of the sunshine on my leaves. i want to taste the dew that gathers every morning on my petals." and so the seed grew and grew. the second seed, however, was hesitant. "who knows what danger lies beneath me in the darkness of the soil below me? what if i damage my maturing sprouts when i struggle to imerge from the soil? what if after all my effort, someone comes along and cuts off my shoots? no. i think i'll stay put until a better time." some time later, a chicken found the seed and promptly ate it up.

just a little something to wake myself up.


You are Psalms.


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now back to chem...

results for dance exco was announced today. really happy that i got the post i ran for. the other exco members are really great. i'm looking forward to working with them.

its really weird how sometimes the littlest thing that you do bears so much significance to the person who receives it. moral of the story: don't be afraid to take that step cos you'll never know how much that person may appreciate it.

well, its easier said than done. there are ends in my life that have been left hanging loose too long. until now, i still haven't figured out which is the most effective way of tying them up. i know i've got to do something soon before the wicker burns out. but sometimes i'm afraid. i'm afraid of saying the wrong things and end up making a complete fool of myself. its a big risk i've gotta take, but unless i take it there ain't gonna be no change in scene. i've been tarrying too long and have been blatantly letting countless opportunities slip through my fingers. but at the end of the day, its always that nagging fear that holds me back. sigh... i guess i'm not making much sense here. i've got quite abit of soul searching to do.

oh man! don't think i've spent so much money on food in my life!

met cel and aimei for lunch at taka's pasta cafe. had mushroom baked rice and oreo's cheesecake. the cake was really good. rich and creamy and cheesy. was super bloated after that. cel and aimei gave me a really pretty hamper :) a gorgeous purple dress bag. was thinking of buying it myself. heheh... within was a beautiful blue dreamcatcher. immediately hung it up in my room when i got back. it fits in perfectly on that baby blue wall next to my window. together with the glow-in-the-dark stars that my sisters put up yesterday on the dreamy, dark blue wall on the opposite side of my room, the room that i had dreamt of designing 3 years back is starting to take shape. :) thanks for the pretty purple hair clip and the "other" thing in the bag too! :) i promise i'll use them. you'll see. *grinz* man! can't wait for cel's up coming party! heheh... dunno what i'd do without you 2! us swinging sisters, charlie's angels, the 3 musketeers! love ya loads belles!

had to cab back to school straight after lunch for chinese. my mood just plunged to the pits. but seeing the smiling faces of my classmates perked me up a little. chinese was really boring. went through some words and that was about it. the time flied by really quickly. as usual, we were let off early. decided to meet aimei back at st nicks. had 2 cups of tantalising ice milo. i'm serious! nobody makes ice milo like uncle mobeen does. icy cold, creamy, rich, milo-ey... haha...think i'm going nuts. haven't been so crazy bout food in such a long time. feel like such a glutton. anyway, watched the syf modern dance item. i'm so proud of them, although i was never part of the cca. after that, me and aimei, took a slow walk round the school compound. from the canteen, past the family louge, to the staff room, past the sec 2 class rooms, the pm room, to the new extension, down the specs stand, past the d and t workshop, the net ball courts and the sunken forum, past the science labs, down the new specs, across the track, past the prayer room and back to the canteen. all the memories just came flooding back. those were the days. i wish they were back again. watched my juniors train for a while before leaving. they're getting better. its heartening to know that the spirit of st nicks gym is being lived up to. they're training really really hard. as hard as we did, maybe even more. i have confidence that sn gym will continue to bring glory to the school. we're the best and we'll always be the best! gambate!!!

when i reached home, i had a really nice surprise waiting for me. my sisters had baked a strawberry tart especially for me. its in the fridge right now. didn't want to kill my appetite before dinner and was too full to eat it after we came back. my sis brought us to this really quaint italian restaurant in holland v called la paolo. its nothing like paolo's in the teenage textbook. nope. it was as different as night and day. it's such a pretty little place. rattans lining the ceiling and the walls, greenery just beyond the glass windows. though it was dark outside, it felt as if we were eating in an outdoor garden on a cool, breezy summer's day. the appetisers were fantastic! the buffolo cheese was simply sumptious. had raw beef too, tho i didn't really know how to appreciate it. oh.. and fried squid too. for the main course, we had different types of pasta. pasta in tomato sauce, pasta in white wine, seafood pasta, spinach pasta in cream sauce and even pasta in squid ink! haha... it was all really tasty... and cheesy too... yum... had a little trouble placing our order tho.. cos the names were all in italian and we couldn't differentiate between the different types of pasta. in the end, the waiter very graciously taught us the difference between the diff kinds of pasta. mainly mee kia, green mee kia and mee pok. haha... what a hoot! really had the time of my life! the perfect evening was made even more delightful when the tiramisu cake came. it's the best cake i've eaten as far back as my limited memory will allow me to go. the bottom layer was soaked in saccharine rum. the chocolate was sweet but not too rich and the coffee was just right. not too strong, but just enough to give that tinge of bittersweetness. it was heavenly! it was soft and fluffy and abosolutely heavenly! i'm definitely going back again!

opps. looks like i past midnight again! dang! oh well... anywayz, happy swinging seventeen to me!

2 angels down. one more june baby to go!

happy birthday to me!!

You are Psychic!


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buh bye sweet sixteen! hello swinging seventeen!

sigh... gonna turn a year older in a few minutes time... well actually, technically, it should be in about 9 hours and abit till its 0934hrs, 17 years after 18th June 1986... hehe...

i'm gonna miss being sixteen. sixteen is the age of innocence. the age of seeing the world as all good (any bad is cos the good had gone bad). the age of discovery of human nature. its something like 12 crossing over to 13. you hafta leave your childhood behind (along with all the discounts)... forge on to the next check point... teenhood. bittersweet memories of late night phone calls, wild escapades, sporadic riotous fetishes and such... and not to forget matter of the heart. :)

goodbye sweet sixteen. i'm gonna miss you. :)

Blue Eyes


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man! i have to stop this habit of blogging so late in the night... or rather, so early in the morning. make things rather confusing cos i'll be talking about what happened during the day that has just begun, when i'm actually refering to the day before...

well, anyway, going on to my substantive...had a very fruitful time in church today. managed to catch the 8:15 bus and reached church at 8:30 to set up the chairs. but lo and behold, i was the only one there... hmph... i suppose its retribution for not turning up on time the previous few times. haha... led the discussion during ym today. was quite freaked out. i don't have the gift of the gab, so i guess i'll just have to make up for it with constant practice. it was quite an experience though. good thing the topic was about psalms and proverbs, something i'm considerably familiar with. i love those 2 books, especially psalms. the verses are just so beautiful, so poetical. i miss studying o level lit. "i wondered lonely as a cloud that float on high o'er vales and hills, when all at once i so a crowd, a host of golden daffodils, beside the lake, beneath the trees, fluttering and dancing in the breeze..." miss lim's favourite poem. i'll never be able to forget that... and her anecdote of catherine lim together with the poem. haha. :)

anyway, went to cadon for lunch with rong and some of the guys from disciple, before ajourning to hansel's place for our first official disciple meeting. met venetia on the way. seems like sunday's a popular day for everybody to be out in gardens. just 2 weeks ago, i met jacinth at the same bus stop when we were on our way for lunch. haha. well, today's disciple, for me, was a rather lathargic session. felt really sleepy throughout the whole session. even during the video, my eyes were on the screen and my ears heard the decibels, but somehow, my brain was not functioning and at the end, i was only able to remember slight snippets of it. bleah. i gotta spend less late night man! its really affecting my concentration and memory power. its definitely not doing any justice to the rings under my eyes either.

well, anyway, i feel really rejuvanated after the sessions on sunday. (maybe its gotta do with the 2 hour nap i took in the afternoon) haven't felt like this since i went for the evangelistic event at tacs 3 years back. so i give thanks to the lord for He is good. His love endures forever. :)

Happy-Go-Lucky. You are a happy person and you
don't let your emotions get to you. You see
everything that's not in a positive light as
not worth messing with and deal with emotions
as they come. You are usually very happy and
probably experience many emotional highs. Enjoy
life.


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is the face that i see in the mirror
the one i want others to see
do i show the way that i walk in my life
the love that You given to me
my heart's desire is to be like You
and all that i do, all i am

do they see Jesus in me
do they recognise Your face
do i communicate Your love and Your grace
do i reflect who You are
in the way i choose to be
do they see Jesus, Jesus in me

its amazing that You'd ever use in me
but use me the way You will
help me to hold up a heart of compassion and grace
a heart that Your spirit fills
may i show forgiveness and mercy
the same way You've shown to me

do they see Jesus in me
do they recognise Your face
do i communicate Your love and Your grace
do i reflect who You are
in the way i choose to be
do they see Jesus in me

well i want to show all the world that You are
the reason i live and breathe
so You'll be the one that they see
when they see me

do they see Jesus in me
do they recognise Your face
do i communicate Your love and Your grace
do i reflect the way You are
in the way i choose to be
do they see Jesus in me

~joy williams~

went back to sn yesterday to collect my cert, pretty depressing ritual, but oh well...
well, actually, my main aim for going back yesterday was to visit my juniors. walking out of the school gates at about 6:30 on the first day of the school holidays with the hum of the clubs music floating out of the gym made me realise that gym is a darn crazy cca. i mean, how many cca are there that makes you train for 6 hours a minimum of 4 times a week during the priceless june hols? i remember reading this article in the newspaper bout a "packed" holiday schedule that entails 2 hours of make up lessons twice a week for 4 weeks. no time for personal pleasures, i quote. erm... hello!?!? i have no idea how i managed to keep myself afloat back then. haha. i do faintly recall quite a couple of emotional break downs though. but that's as normal as it gets. i love my life! i seriously do. :)

remember me this way

every now and then
you find a special friend
who never lets us down

who understands it all
reaches out each time you fall
you're the best friend that i've found

and i know that you can't stay
but a part of you will never ever go away
your heart will stay

i'll make a wish for you
hope it will come true
that life would just be kind
to such a gentle mind
if you lose your way
think back on yesterday
remember me this way
remember me this way

i don't need eyes to see
the love you bring to me
where ever i may go

and i know that you'll be there
forever more a part of me
you're everywhere
i'll always care

i'll make a wish for you
hope it will come true
that life would just be kind
to such a gentle mind
if you lose your way
think back on yesterday
remember me this way
remember me this way

and i'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
i'll be standing by your side in all you do
and i will never leave
as long as you believe
you just believe

that i'll make a wish for you
and hope it will come true
that life would just be kind
to such a gentle mind
if you lose your way
think back on yesterday
remember me this way
remember me this way

LionHeart 2003 was successfully held on the 7th of June at 7pm at the hwachong auditorium. it was a sell out man! was initially worried bout the tix sale cos there were lotsa groups pushing to sell their tix at the same time as ours-- rumours, soiree, string orch... by 7:10, all the tix, every single one, was sold out. felt super proud for the organising committee... their hard work really paid of. it really touched me to see all the talent time performers coming together in full strength, together with performers from other schools, for such a worthy cause. i can't help but feel ashame of myself for ever doubting that such a large scale charity event was possible and within reach of this really committed group of people who weren't afraid to dream. i'm not sure how much was raised, (possibly almost 10, 000?), but it sure felt good to be part of this event. to all those who came down to watch the show, thanks for your generous support. to ronglin, ryan, quanyao, perryn and qian yi, congratulations on a job well done. super proud of you guys!

people live on hope
HEROES live on COURAGE

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hmm...quite consistent :) was a fox is tommy's quiz.

school's out and i'm looking forward to every bit of it like i do exams.

7 reasons why june hols 2003 sucks:
1) its only 3 weeks long
2) i have a thousand and one things i need to do and i don't know where to start
3) study, study and study somemore for block test. can somebody please remind me what "holiday" means? i can't find my dictionary in this mess
4) i have chinese lesson on my birthday
5) i have chinese lesson on the day of my class chalet, which happens to be on the same day as cel's birthday party. someone teach me how to apparate!
6) i have tonnes of holiday homework, projects and readings to do
7) theres lots of research work to be done during these 3 weeks for pw

and i thought spending 3/4 of my june hols in the st nicks gym was gross injustice.

this week's been an exceptionally tiring week for me. had audition for syf opening ceremony at acs barker on wednesday. been feeling jaded and totally drained out since then. seems that you only feel the tiredness of the preparation process after the actual event itself. guess i was too busy to notice it before then. the syf brought back a flood of memories. i don't know how to explain it. i guess its what you call bittersweet memories. the whole process of getting ready was familiar yet different. getting into my costume, getting into my make up and hairdo, getting into the mood of the dance. the last minute rush of events. the last minute touch up of our costume and props. the last minute silent prayer before the music begins. the psychology. the aniticipation. the relief when it was finally over. i just wished i was back on the gym mat making good what went wrong during the competition last year. competition's a really funny thing. it brings out the worse sentiments towards your opposition yet at the end of the competition sportmanship that was never actually there is being glorified. then some time down the road, you meet your opponents and you laugh and joke at the shared memories that you never shared. and you acquire new acquaintances in people that you could never, in your wildest dreams, have fathomed to be so before. its strange, but really sweet all the same.

i guess the flurry of activities this term has taken a toll on me. seems like i feel this way every june. i recall being in a similar situation last year and the year before. the news of having to come back for chinese lessons on those suspiciously coincidental dates was the spark this time. i was sitting at the farthest corner of the SBS bus reading my book and minding my own business when i felt the hint of a tear sqeeze past my eyelids. beside me, two women were having a friendly conversation that on any other day would have amused me more than anything else, this time, it really ticked me off instead. and it didn't help that i was still experiencing the blistering headache i had developed the day before, the day after syf. i felt stifled, almost clautrophobic, something highly unusual that i'll experience. i just felt really angry at myself, but for what, i do not know. i guess i was just saturated with pent up emotions that desperately needed an avenue to be released. after a nice warm shower, some of the tension had been washed away with the dirt of the day. i just sat down in front of the piano and played for about an hour. felt especially relieved after playing scriabin's etude in E flat minor and Beethoven's pathetique first movement. music always was my means of escape, be it stress from exams or just plain unhapiness about my life. that an a nice tub of extra nutty rocky road never fails to brighten my day. yep. feeling a whole lot better now than i was a few hours back. gonna nurse my headache now. good night.

if HE brings you to it, HE will bring you through it

amen to that. :)

Rolf:
you wait, little girl, on an empty stage
for fate to turn the light on
your life, little girl, is an empty page
that men will want to write on (to write on)
you are sixteen, going on seventeen,
baby its time to think
better beware, be canny and careful
baby, you're ont he brink
you are sixteen, going on seventeen
fellows will fall in line
eager young lads and roues and cads
will offer you food and wine
totally unprepared are you
to face a world of men
timid and shy and scared are you
of things beyond your ken
you need someone older and wiser
telling you what to do
i am seventeen going on eighteen
i'll take care of you

Liesl:
i am sixteen going on seventeen
i know that i'm naive
fellows i meet may tell me i'm sweet
and willingly i'll believe
i am sixteen, going on seventeen
innocent as a rose
bachelor dandies, drinkers of brandies
what do i know of those
totally unprepared am i
to face a world of men
timid and shy and scared am i
of things beyond my ken
i need someone older and wiser
telling me what to do
you are seventeen, going on eighteen
i'll depend on you.

Maria:
a bell is no bell till you ring it
a song is no song till you sing it
and love in your heart wasn't put there to stay
love isn't love till you give it away

when you're sixteen, going on seventeen
waiting for life to start
somebody kind who touches yourmind
will suddenly touch your heart
when that happens, after it happens
nothing is quite the same
somehow you know you'll jump up and go
whenever he calls your name
fone are your old ideas of life
the old ideas grow dim
lo and behold your'se someone's wife
and you belong to him
you may think this kind of adventure never may come to you
darling sixteen going on seventeen,
wait a year or two

(i'll wait a year or two)

sixteen going on seventeen


i love being sixteen :)

i'm going to melbourne this december! woohoo... can hardly contain my excitement. can't wait to see mike and suelee again. huiqi and eliza are going too. think huiqi's going delirious bout the whole OASIS thing. she was grinning to herself throughout the whole chem lecture. haha. not that i'm any better though. so far, most of my applications for the various programmes have met with dead ends and i'm more than overjoyed to see that the weather is finally changing. good things have been flooding through the gates these past 2 weeks, almost too good to be true. i'm afraid that one day i'll wake up and find this all a dream. better not count my chickens before they hatch. just hope more good stuff will continue to come my way.
thank you God! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIMEI DEARIE!!!
i miss you so much! i'm fervently counting the hours till this saturday when the 3 of us shall be reunited once again! i love you so much! have a swinging seventeenth sistah! hope you like the present cel and i picked out for you! cheers!