a fresh new page
a leaf untouched
so much to say
where do i start?
the sky lights up
the birds awake
the world moves on
which path to take?
that cloud
the sky
i reach
i fly
i fall
in vain
retreat
in shame
the tree branced snaps
the leaves pined down
the birds fly off
alas, no sound
the sun still sets
the moon still glows
and waves still crash
and time still flows
a bud unfurls
the crick't laughter
a state of art
the morning after
still scars remain
long after the pain
yet fl'wers bloom brightest
after the rain
Wednesday, September 24, 2003
My inner child is six years old!
Look what I can do! I can walk, I can run, I can
read! I like to do stuff, and there's a whole
big world out there to do it in. Just so long
as I can take my blankie and my Mommy and my
three best friends with me, of course.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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erps ;P
Wednesday, September 17, 2003
Tuesday, September 16, 2003
i can feel my teeth now the braces are gone!
there are no obstacles in my way... (not in the form of braces that is)
dun have to worry bout food getting stuck now that my braces are gone...
its gonna be a bright, bright sunshiney day...
(sung to the tune of I Can See Clearly Now by Anne Murray)
well... couldn't think of anything else to replace that last verse, but wth... it was quite bright and sunny today anyway... lalala... spend 1 hour plus at the orthodontist's today getting my braces out... have no idea what she was doing shining some LED stuff into my mouth. well... actually i'm not very sure what exactly it was... that was all i could catch from the corner of my eye. then the nurse made me put on a 0.5mm lead coat when i took an x-ray (while getting my braincells fried at the same time. i'm quite sure i felt something funny going on in my temples when the carbon thingy stopped rotating at my right temple. haha... ok... mebbe i was just bored. anyway, got my retainers today. super uncomfortable... oh well... think i'll get use to it soon. good thing is that i can take them off whenever i want to. (something new to do to keep me awake during lectures. look ma! no hands!! ;P ) supposed to wear them on 24 hours or else my teeth will start shifting back... very tempted not to but since i've already invested so much, must not let all of it go to waste. :) even if it means sounding like daffy duck for the next few months... oh well... its all in the name of vanity. haha.
anyway, 2 really interesting things happened on the way home today. interesting thing number 1. the 156 bus that arrived at the bishan mrt bus stop had NOBODY on it! is that perculiar or is that perculiar? haha... think it just came out of the depot, but still a completely empty 156 at 7 in the evening is a rare sighting indeed. interesting thing number 2. saw a really pretty sunset when i was walking home today. haven't seen one as beautiful in quite awhile. it wasn't all that magnificent. it was more of a quiet beauty. the whole sky was a deep velvet blue with a few clouds strung across. then in the horizon the blue blended into sea green and finally the yellow, disappearing behind the roofs of some terraces. the silhouette of the rustling leaves of a solitary palm tree pasted in front of the row of terraces completes the serene atmosphere. the cry of a lonely cricket could be heard over dinnertime sounds. the whole estate just felt so... magical. i love my neighbourhood. :) its so rare nowadays to get intune with nature. i'm usually so consumed in my own thoughts that i fail to see the beauty of simplicity around me. hmm...reminds me of that song gary played over his laptop "there's gotta be more to life than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me..."
quote of the day: what you have is God's gift to you. what you become is your gift to God.
there are no obstacles in my way... (not in the form of braces that is)
dun have to worry bout food getting stuck now that my braces are gone...
its gonna be a bright, bright sunshiney day...
(sung to the tune of I Can See Clearly Now by Anne Murray)
well... couldn't think of anything else to replace that last verse, but wth... it was quite bright and sunny today anyway... lalala... spend 1 hour plus at the orthodontist's today getting my braces out... have no idea what she was doing shining some LED stuff into my mouth. well... actually i'm not very sure what exactly it was... that was all i could catch from the corner of my eye. then the nurse made me put on a 0.5mm lead coat when i took an x-ray (while getting my braincells fried at the same time. i'm quite sure i felt something funny going on in my temples when the carbon thingy stopped rotating at my right temple. haha... ok... mebbe i was just bored. anyway, got my retainers today. super uncomfortable... oh well... think i'll get use to it soon. good thing is that i can take them off whenever i want to. (something new to do to keep me awake during lectures. look ma! no hands!! ;P ) supposed to wear them on 24 hours or else my teeth will start shifting back... very tempted not to but since i've already invested so much, must not let all of it go to waste. :) even if it means sounding like daffy duck for the next few months... oh well... its all in the name of vanity. haha.
anyway, 2 really interesting things happened on the way home today. interesting thing number 1. the 156 bus that arrived at the bishan mrt bus stop had NOBODY on it! is that perculiar or is that perculiar? haha... think it just came out of the depot, but still a completely empty 156 at 7 in the evening is a rare sighting indeed. interesting thing number 2. saw a really pretty sunset when i was walking home today. haven't seen one as beautiful in quite awhile. it wasn't all that magnificent. it was more of a quiet beauty. the whole sky was a deep velvet blue with a few clouds strung across. then in the horizon the blue blended into sea green and finally the yellow, disappearing behind the roofs of some terraces. the silhouette of the rustling leaves of a solitary palm tree pasted in front of the row of terraces completes the serene atmosphere. the cry of a lonely cricket could be heard over dinnertime sounds. the whole estate just felt so... magical. i love my neighbourhood. :) its so rare nowadays to get intune with nature. i'm usually so consumed in my own thoughts that i fail to see the beauty of simplicity around me. hmm...reminds me of that song gary played over his laptop "there's gotta be more to life than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me..."
quote of the day: what you have is God's gift to you. what you become is your gift to God.
Monday, September 15, 2003
i'm FINALLY taking off my braces tomorrow!! woohoo! after 2 freaking long years, 5 months and...lemme see... 4 days (counting tmr). muah haha!
ok...now on to something more serious...
right now i feel like digging a hole in the ground and burrying myself for good. really hate it when i say stuff that i shouldn't say, and even more so, have no right to say. i'm really sorry you. sigh. feel horribly guilt-striken right now. i remember back in p2, i said something real horrible (or at least i tot it was horrible back then tho saying it right now would not yield any repurcussions, i think). didn't mean it at all and i felt really horrible after that. apologised profusely and she said it was ok. but almost a decade on and i can still remember every single second of it. met her again a few years back. she was (and i bet still is) as pretty and sweet as ever and i was just overcome by remorse and disgust for myself. asked her whether she remembered how we used to play during recess way back in p2 and she only remembers the good times we spent playing catching and five stones and throwing coins into the grotto at the sacred heart. asked her if she remembered that fateful day and she says she has no inkling at all. sometimes i just feel i do not deserve the wonderful friends that i have made over the years. believe me. i love you guys all so much. i couldn't bear to hurt anyone.
on the flip side, sometimes i really hate myself for stuff that i should do but fail to. shall not venture into the explicit details lest i bore you. shall continue wallowing in pw and tuts now. and no jae... i am NOT a freak. thank you very much.
ok...now on to something more serious...
right now i feel like digging a hole in the ground and burrying myself for good. really hate it when i say stuff that i shouldn't say, and even more so, have no right to say. i'm really sorry you. sigh. feel horribly guilt-striken right now. i remember back in p2, i said something real horrible (or at least i tot it was horrible back then tho saying it right now would not yield any repurcussions, i think). didn't mean it at all and i felt really horrible after that. apologised profusely and she said it was ok. but almost a decade on and i can still remember every single second of it. met her again a few years back. she was (and i bet still is) as pretty and sweet as ever and i was just overcome by remorse and disgust for myself. asked her whether she remembered how we used to play during recess way back in p2 and she only remembers the good times we spent playing catching and five stones and throwing coins into the grotto at the sacred heart. asked her if she remembered that fateful day and she says she has no inkling at all. sometimes i just feel i do not deserve the wonderful friends that i have made over the years. believe me. i love you guys all so much. i couldn't bear to hurt anyone.
on the flip side, sometimes i really hate myself for stuff that i should do but fail to. shall not venture into the explicit details lest i bore you. shall continue wallowing in pw and tuts now. and no jae... i am NOT a freak. thank you very much.
Friday, September 12, 2003
capturing fleeting spurts of inspirations, like the wind sweeping amber leaves into its embrace and dropping them onto the concrete pavement; like the wind, sometimes warm and refreshing, yet sometimes cold and biting. such are the winds of life, sweeping you off your feet and bringing you on unknown voyages beyond your wildest imagination. and you know you cannot resist it no matter how hard you try. its wuthering is exceedingly overwhelming.